Let Me See Your Halo

i have a job interview tomorrow

yea its pretty sweet

i had a date yesterday, that was pretty sweet too

ive been eating like a fatass and i havnt gained any weight, i lost 2 pounds

its been a week since i smoked pot 

its been 3 days since i had a cigarette

and 3 weeks since i did a hard drug

i guess im doing alright

im thinking about getting twitter who has it?

i have too many thoughts for facebook status

k bye

i dont have anything to blog anymore

i have an interview for telus on thursday

im going to shit my pants

give me 2 pairs

i just realized i only blog when i have like the extremes of sad mad or happy. and right now i am so happy. i just had this huge job interview with telus starts at 19 dollars an hour. awoooooooo on the other hand i have like 1400 dollars left to my life lol. shieeeeeeeet. i got the hills yesterday im so happy and im single now apparantly. why do little kids use the word love so loosely. like really i tried dating this guy who cheated on me before (LOL) and he told me he loved me the second we where back together. hello big red flag. i just thought i would release my life into tumblr world.   771-0597

Love triangles are so twisted

remember that ‘amazing’ guy i blogged about that i met and he was perfect and i never saw him again ever? i met this guy through my friend and we where getting to know each other and we decided to go to twisted together, i went over to his place to pre-drink and when i get to the door, guess who answers, the mysterious disappearing twisted boy. only in my world does something this fucked up happen. except i think this whole thing has kind of fucked me over in terms of possibility of dating him seeming how i was kissing the guy that just kind of had a huge blow out thing with him. fuck whatever i dont care about men anymore

This bed will be my death bed soon

what am i? what the hell am i anymore. am i anything? i have deteriorated i have wilted im not that happy cheery bubbly gay guy everyones grew to love. is that why i have lost so many friends. i dont think ill be on this earth much longer. if i dont get a savior soon i doubt ill make it through the year. i have lost so much weight its become extremely noticeable, i dont eat anymore, i dont feel the need to. no one talks to me anymore because i am turning into that kid that just faded away. my sleeping pattern is one of mystery, if i told anyone they would say i was fucked up, i cant get a job, what do i do with myself anymore. i have given up hope and i dont feel like trying for anything anymore i wish someone was here i wish someone could talk to me. ive lost so many friends from them just fading away and they dont seem to be coming back this time. ive come to realize who really cares and who was just using me, i havnt spoken to 3 of my best friends in what seems like a month. i dont even feel like going out to the clubs anymore, i wish i could just go back to the good times when everything was simple and everyone would just hang around and laugh and just be having the best times of our lives. why did i want to be 18 again?

Baby I’m falling apart at the seams

I wouldn’t mind if I was murdered right now. I don’t want to live anymore. I am so useless

I’ll make you feel like, heaven is me

i dont blog anymore, i just dont have emotions anymore. last night i met the most amazing guy, like he was.. i cant even describe it. he was the definition of my perfect guy. he was the most amazingly perfect looking person i have ever seen in my god damn life my height maybe an inch taller, short black hair an amazing smile and gorgeous eyes. i have never thought someone was as good looking as he was, other then my first 2 crushes ever who strangely, looked kind of similar to him, anyways we talked and hes Norwegian and he gave me his name but i forget it and i feel like ass for forgetting it. it started with a c, c something. cay something maybe, i just remember he had to tell me it 4 times because i was so confused. why cant i remember this. the sad thing is ill probably never see him ever again and ill just be another guy from the bar.

i hate life 

Lil Grey Goose, If you dont get loose

i just realized ive changed my url like 10 times in the past month
and maddy hasnt said anything about not having matching urls anymore

WHAT THE HELL 

Getting Away With Murder

i dont blog anymore
and i dont remember why i deleted my like 3 pages of blogs
i think i had relationship rage

riiiiiiiiight
im so not impressed with tequilas dj

except he played white lies! 

The 9 Rules Of Dating

1. I will not go out with a man who hasnt asked me out first
    
2. I will not go out with a man who keeps me waiting by the phone
    
3. I will not date a man who isnt sure he wants to date me
    
4. I will not date a man who makes me feel sexually undesirable
    
5. I will not date a man who drinks or does drugs to an extent that makes me uncomfortable
    
6. I will not be with a man whos afraid to talk about out future
    
7. I will not under any circumstances spend my precious time with a man who has already rejected me
    
8. I will not date a man who is married
    
9. I will not be with a man who is not clearly a good kind loving person